So, I wasn’t feeling inspired to write weeks 2 and 3….after the tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut, I wasn’t really feeling inspired to do anything. I’ve been saying prayers for those babies and know everyone else has had heavy hearts through the holidays as well.
It is unthinkable that something like that could happen today…in 2012…in a sleepy little town in Connecticut. It is unthinkable that these tragedies happen in the country that proclaims itself the “Leader of the Free World.” It is unthinkable. But, it happened. So what now? Now, we move forward and, hopefully, this never, ever happens again.
13 for me, especially in 2012, is an incredibly lucky number. I applied for my current job on January 13, got listed on MuckRack on January 13, had my first interview on April 13 (another Friday) and got the job on May 16 (close enough). I am tingling with excitement for what this year — my 25th — will bring.
I’m big into rituals and last year, I started off the year by creating a vision board and a list of things I wanted to “create” in 2012, thanks to an email I received from Christine Hassler of “20 Something, 20 Everything” fame. This year, I’m doing it again.
This morning, I started off the first week of the New Year (let’s be real people, New Year’s Eve is a non-day…it’s a day devoted to boozing and being with friends and family) with a gym trip and a little look back ritual. It was great to see all the things I’d accomplished in 2012…of course, there were some areas where I backtracked and some where I didn’t make any progress at all, but all year, these things guided me and helped me make important decisions. I sacrificed this year…I learned that sometimes, it’s important to jump one “square” back (in the checkerboard of Life) in order to jump two (or more) squares ahead. Jumping back hurts, it’s never easy, but the jump forward? It’s like the ultimate prize. It’s amazing!
Three years ago, for 2010, I started the New Year in Paris — a college senior on the cliff of “real life.” Half way into the world she would claim as her own, while still somewhat stuck in the world of college. Fast forward three years and I’m in the place I’ve wanted to be my whole life – New York City. I have an adorable, perfect, wonderful apartment on the UES and I have a job “all the girls wanted,” as my favorite movie proclaims. I’ve been thinking about two of my favorite movies a lot lately — “Devil Wears Prada” and “Morning Glory” — in both of these movies, the women are like me — a bit unsure, a bit unsteady but fully aware of their end goals…the path, I always say, is just a bit murky. I wish I could look ahead 10 years and see where I’d be (hopefully in a lovely 2 bedroom apartment with a handsome husband and a lovely little one), but life doesn’t work like that…you can’t fast forward like you can with a movie. You have to get up, each day, and MAKE what you want to happen, happen.
That’s my main goal for 2013 — Making it happen — I will do what I set out to do, as I’ve always done and I will do it in a way that works for me. I’ve been grabbing life by the horns from the crib, I’m most certainly not going to stop now!
I hope the spirit of Taurus (my incredibly appropriate sign) gives you some courage for the future. Step back when you have to, push when you know you can, but most of all, love the life you live and great things will happen.
The path to greatness may be uncomfortable, but who ever said getting a “big life” was easy. Tonight, as I dance the night away with my friends, I say a toast to you — whoever you are, out there in the universe — that you AND I may find inner peace this year because that’s where the true strength is.